Wednesday, August 20, 2014


Last month has been a whirlwind of change! After six years of not having, nor really wanting a car, some very lovely people from my church and who moved to Japan, graced me with their old Toyota Camry.

I'm one of those people who thinks that if God gave me a car, then He has somewhere specific He wants me to go in it. So, I am praying about that because I sense it could potentially be somewhere radically different than from where I am now. Not that this stresses me out or anything.

And I moved, too, which really normally wouldn't be that big of a deal--however. In this case, I'm sharing a home with two older-than-me single ladies. One of them just got a kitten, which she named Van Morrison. I do like it here, but all of the cognitive flexibility healing stuff I've been writing about here and there is going to be stretched to its outer limits, I'm sure. 

I don't know what the future holds, but if God is in it, I will be okay. Step by step Jesus lights the way of my path!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Healing Prayer in St. Louis, MO

Most Protestant people I know are a little touchy when it comes to anything Catholic, but for the most part, I am not one of those folks. If you go to a church where the true gospel of Jesus Christ is preached and taught, then it doesn't matter to me which side of the religious coin you're on. Faith is faith, pure and simple.

That said, I found online what appears to be a wonderful healing prayer ministry in St. Louis, MO. They are Catholic and offer quite a bit of assistance to those with a prayer need, including the ability to have someone pray for you over the telephone. With autistic children it's almost impossible to get out of the house for long periods of time, so this might be a viable alternative for you.

Monday, August 18, 2014

School Days!

A Facebook friend, Curry, is just about to start his first day of college! He was healed of autism four years ago, and at that time, he was on the same academic level as a second grader. Thank you, Lord, for your marvelous deeds, and for Your great love that even now, you still heal us! 

We praise You for Your loving kindness, Jesus!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

A Prayer for Today

Lord Jesus, we know You are the Healer of all mankind. We praise You and thank You for giving up the riches and glory of Your heavenly home in order to come and be with us here on Earth. You suffered with us, and then suffered unimaginably for us. There is no pain we experience that you are not familiar with.

But many people trying to take care of their children who are on the spectrum feel so alone. They have been left by spouses and friends, and it makes it almost impossible to believe that Your eye is still upon them and that they have not been forsaken. But You haven't forsaken them. Nor have You forsaken their children. 

Jesus, let your presence among these people be known and if possible, be felt, too. Reveal Yourself to them, just even for a split second, not for the sake of experience, but for the sake of comfort that You are indeed there. Send your Holy Spirit to provide counsel and wisdom for those who seek after You.

Lord, without hope, we are faint, weak, and sick at heart. Revive the hope of those who put their trust in You long ago but are still waiting for answers and healing. Draw them deeper into Your presence. As they cling to You, the Rock of their salvation, may You reward tangibly all of those who do put their faith in You and seek You with all of their hearts. 

Heal the sick, Jesus. Restore all that the locusts have eaten. You love your children. Again we thank You and praise You for your great love. Thank you, Lord that You are a Redeemer. 


Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Suicide & Autism

Yes, I am writing this brief post in response to Robin Williams' death. I am deeply saddened by it, but I am also angry, too. Article after article states that this was "so sudden." As if a happy person wakes up one day and decides over a morning cup of coffee to just end it all. 

No. It does not work that way. Depression leading to suicide is never sudden. Ever. In fact, statistically speaking the average length of time a person waits to get treated for depression is twenty years after its onset. How do we not notice another person's suffering for two decades?

An article written for Psychology Today states that a person on the autism spectrum is 28 times more likely to think about suicide. However, what is interesting is that it isn't the autism that generates the thoughts. It is, rather, a response to bullying and social isolation. 

When are we going to start learning how to treat each other? When are we going to notice another person's pain and stop inflicting them with more? 

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Spiritual & Emotional Maturity

We all know there's an ongoing debate as to whether or not autistic people possess empathy. I can't speak for everyone, but I know I have it. 

But to possess empathy and to be emotionally mature are two separate issues. And although the autistic people I've observed are emotionally immature, many Christians I've met, not on the spectrum, are dealing with the same (for lack of a better word) problem. 

Most individuals I know really do love Jesus and do strive to be spiritually mature. Yet they judge people. They anger easily. They reject out of that anger. They gossip. Why? Because they have not yet dealt with their emotions. 

It is not possible to be spiritually mature without being emotionally mature. Take care, on your healing journey, to bring all aspects of yourself to the throne of God. Pray for balance in your emotional expression.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Emotional and Physical Needs

One of the biggest challenges in my life right now is to identify both emotional and physical (or material) needs

These areas of my life have been repressed for so long (okay, they've been repressed forever), that sitting down to make a list of these needs is painful. And close to impossible, since my mind just draws a tremendous blank every time I try. 

You would think that this is really just a bunch of useless psychology, but I've learned that the human spirit--the part of us that communes with God and stands in His Presence, cannot be healthy...cannot receive fully from God when we deny the other two thirds of ourselves (mind and body). 

Painful or not, though, I do still try. I bring my paper, pencil, and my heart, and I sit before the Lord working out this very difficult problem. To do so means I am working to trust Jesus with needs I never before thought He cared about. But He does. 

Maybe you have been trying to raise an autistic child on your own, and you haven't thought much about your emotions or your body, or if you have, you believe that thinking of yourself is wrong. It's not true. I've also discovered in this process that sharing my needs with Jesus strengthens me to share the needs of others with Him, too. In other words, I care a great deal more for others when I take the time to care about myself. 

Sunday, August 10, 2014

God & His Promises

In 2002, while casually reading Isaiah, the Lord clearly spoke to my spirit. "Read that passage again, but every time you see 'Egypt' replace it with your name." 

Consequently, Isaiah 19:19-22 read like this: 

"In that day there will be an altar to the LORD in the heart of Kelly, and a monument to the LORD at its border. It will be a sign and a witness to the LORD Almighty in the land of Kelly. When she cries out to the LORD because of her oppressors, he will send her a savior and defender, and he will rescue her. So the Lord will make himself known to Kelly, and in that day she will acknowledge the LORD...The Lord will strike Kelly with a plague; he will strike her and heal her. She will turn to the LORD, and he will respond to her pleas and heal her."

I had already been sick for a number of years by the time He spoke these words to me, so I rejoiced knowing a day would come when I would be made well. God, after all, had promised. 

I'm better than I was in 2002. Except, I'm not really where I thought I'd be by now, either. And until last year, there were times when the incomplete fulfillment of this word was deeply upsetting. But during prayer, a thought about this issue came to me. Here it is:

I have learned on this journey that many, many Christians receive promises from God concerning their future. Consequently, I've also seen an error that is almost universally made among those of us waiting for fulfillment who have received such promises. The problem is we end up making those promises bigger than God. And the longer we wait for fulfillment, the easier it is to make this mistake.

It's easy to spot people who have done this. Simply, we get angry when events do not come to pass when expected. We get impatient, we complain, and we seek out other people (rather than God) to confirm what the Lord may have initially said. We also get angry with others who suggest that we may simply need to wait even more upon God. 

God knows our inclination to worship anything more than Him, which is why He tested Abraham. Could Abraham sacrifice Isaac, his only son whom He loved? Remember, Isaac was the promise made to Abraham. 

Abraham proved to be faithful and was willing to lay Isaac down upon the altar. Just as he was about to kill his son, God intervened and sent a ram for the sacrifice instead. This passing of this test was credited to Abraham as righteousness.

The Lord does keep His promises and He delights in doing so. But if you are experiencing a delay in the fulfillment of something you expected years ago, perhaps it is time to examine your heart and ask yourself what means more to you: God Himself or the words He spoke over you? 

Just food for thought today.


Friday, August 8, 2014

Hair Care

It might seem silly to you that I'd write about hair care. But I figured if God is willing to heal me at such a late time in my life, it may happen for someone else, too. If that's so, you have a lot of catching up to do in terms of knowing how to take care of yourself--emotionally, spiritually, AND physically

I haven't had anyone to show me the way out, yet I've really needed the guidance. Even small tips like these have been a big help in how I care for my body, but I've spent years looking for them. So I'm hoping this post and others like it will save you some time so you can concentrate on more meaningful things in life.

So, anyway, my hormones are all over the place which I've discovered affects my hair. Until recently, I've either had locks like straw, or my head has felt like a total grease pit, and sometimes all of this has happened in the same day. Very frustrating! 

But not long ago, I read a tip that says for healthier hair, condition it first, and then shampoo it. Well, I tried that. didn't work. But! I discovered if I shampoo, condition, and then shampoo it one last time, my hair stays clean, shiny, and soft for days!  It's a small victory, but I'm pleased with the results.
Try it and see if it works for you...

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Jesus Loves You

I suddenly feel like for so long I have inadvertently been on a quest for perfection rather than to grow closer to the Lord Jesus. Somehow on my journey rather than pursuing healing, I began to search after social acceptance thinking these things are one and the same. They are not. 

Actually, I have been striving for healing because I wanted to be a person who can help others somehow. I've also prayed for decades to have an understanding of what I am supposed to give to this world--because I believe we are here to primarily give and not take. At the very least, I think we are supposed to leave something worthwhile behind, whether it is hope, or our joy, or...something of real value...with real substance, to generations coming up after us.

A true who denies him or herself and who picks up her cross and carries it daily, will never find acceptance in this world. That is not the goal. It is not even the prize. But healing...healing is what gives us the ability to pick up that cross. It gives us the strength to carry it, and that daily carrying is what leads to transformation so we become more and more like Christ everyday. 

Last night as I was thinking over that same question, "What can I give? What can I say that might make a difference to people?" the answer came rather clearly and suddenly. It was simply this:

"Tell them I love them." 

So, here we are. And so here you go, precious people known and about to be known by God. You are loved. The Lord Jesus Christ loves you. Autism does not stop God from loving you. Autism does not stop God from loving your autistic kids. If you in are the Father, He is in you. If you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you, and He can never, ever leave you, nor can He forsake you. If you are in Jesus Christ, you can never be, nor will you ever be alone in this world again. 

If you do not know Him, but want to know Him, just say, "Come Lord Jesus. I believe you are the Son of God. I invite you to come and live in my heart. Please forgive me for my past sins and mistakes. Help me to forgive others who need to be forgiven. In Jesus' Name. Amen." 

Nothing can ever separate you from the love of God. Nothing. 

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Seeking God & Autism

Now that this healing journey of mine has lasted for the last seven years or so, I've come to understand that seeking God (which is how this journey started--by seeking Him) is not an easy task--for anyone. That being said, I now also believe that an autism diagnosis in the mix makes understanding the Lord a little bit more of a challenge. 


To begin with the Holy Scriptures are filled with symbolism from beginning to end. And up until six years ago, symbolism was completely over my head. Even so, I came to realize that being able to understand Biblical symbolism is crucially important to discern the many ways God imparts His perfect will to us. I prayed for God to change my thinking from the concrete to the abstract, and He did.

Without understanding the hidden meanings of places, names, colors, and so forth, particularly in the Old Testament, scripture becomes nothing but a litany of rules and regulation. Symbolism, on the other hand, reveals God's heart toward man and to all creation. Symbolism reveals both love and relationship. 

God also imparts His will to us through dreams, which is another mine field of symbols. 

If you are looking for healing, answers, understanding, knowledge, hope, joy, peace...or for whatever you need, you too, can seek God. He is all and knows all. And He draws near to those who draw near to Him. He is also rewards those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6). 

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Healing Prayer Ministry: Fairfax, VA

From time to time, I stumble upon healing ministries while surfing the internet. Recently, Healing Grace Ministries' website came to my attention. I'm especially encouraged by this organization because according to their "about us" information, their ministry is based on the teaching of Francis and Judith MacNutt.

Every prayer ministry is different, however the School of Healing Prayer at Christian Healing Ministries (founded by the MacNutt's) is pretty much the gold standard as far as the level of training an individual receives when learning to pray for others. So, if you are seeking healing and live in the Fairfax area, this very well could be a great place for you to visit! 

I hope you'll give it a try.